I want to learn some art. 几天前画出来的什么什么根本不像起初想出来的。I look at it and want to laugh but instead I think, 好怅惘呀。

最近，连弹钢琴也变得有点难受了。But I have no choice or I'll lose touch and that will be a greater loss...I think. Will not have much time left starting next week or so...school will start again. Though actually, I compare myself with many of my friends and decide I am not so busy actually. In fact I find that I am one of a more free students in my school. Interestingly, I seem to working harder for my japanese classes than my school work still. 人，脑和心都存在不同的地方。Hard life to live lol.

I am thinking if I should try to get summer study programme next year, it is a programme where some students from my university can spend a month at a overseas university over our summer holidays. There are only 2 universities available for summer study though but I feel like trying for one of them.

Problem is, I actually want to go for overseas holiday next year summer too. There is enough time because summer holidays is 3 months, and summer study programme is just a month but problem is the cost. Summer study will cost at least $5000 just for programme and that does not include my living expense in another country. A holiday will cost maybe $2000 depending on how good my planning is. I wonder if I'm really able to spend $7000 in space of 3 months time. I want to use my own money I earned myself but that will drain almost all my savings till now. And I hope to go for exchange programme in my year 3 of university too...which will cost more. Trying to make the most out of university life is a little expensive I guess.

去了邮局几趟，连现在也没很多钱。我还记得以前我说过，我讨厌钱，现在反而有点矛盾。搞笑！“我讨厌钱。”只有我这种lame 人才能说出的话 lol.